If you’re happy & you know it, Clap your hands

I feel like I’m in limbo. I’ve got all these amazing, happy, euphoric happenings going on, that I am so elated about; however, on the flip side, I’ve been having some really low lows, & been experiencing a lot of bad luck as of late. In stride, its great, because the lows, really make you appreciate the highs. So I’m feeling balanced, but simultaneously I also feel incredibly off balance. I’m a firm believer in karma, & I feel as though I have racked up a lot of good karma as of late, so I’d be lying if I wasn’t frustrated with the lack of follow-through I’m getting with it. You will never regret kindness so I always strive to practice kindness daily & I believe it truly enriches your life. So I’m hopeful good things are coming my way, & I’m on the precipice of greatness.

My scattered thoughts, that I’m not really capable of penning out eloquently today are the following:

  • Foo Fighters are an absolutely incredible band, & David Grohl is such a joy and breath of fresh air to watch on stage. If you ever can afford to see them, go!
  • Dating is the easiest but also most challenging task a mid-twenties person can take on. I’m getting pretty tired of the song & dance, and just making decisions about it. Where’s my prince charming I’m head over heels for, that reciprocates those feelings, at already!?
  • Your health comes first! I haven’t always practiced this, because by nature I’m a people pleaser & do what’s needed of me always, no matter what. However, you must know when you need a break, mentally or physically & take the self-care in order to do so. I’m trying harder to remember this & am better at recognizing when I need a break.
  • I feel like I need a hike up in the mountains, any takers?

Anyways, thanks for reading my random array of thoughts today. Ask me some questions! Also, go outside, & listen to some Foo Fighters! 

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Ha Ling Peak – taken by yours Truly 

Growth

Blink-182 always comes to my head & serenades me with “Nobody likes you when you’re twenty-three,” and I truly believe they hit the nail on the head with that statement. Nobody ever told me nobody likes you at twenty-five though either. I feel as though from about twenty-two to at present twenty-five plus, you’re floundering. You’re old enough to know better yet young enough to still be figuring it all out. And it’s scary! How am I expected to balance a perfect budget and simultaneously live it up in my twenties! It’s a near impossible task! I’ve mostly been doing that latter as of late. Coming out of a six-year relationship, I was determined to make the most of my twenties, and really experience everything that a single twenty-five could. It’s been grand, but the dark consequences of some of my actions have really come to a head as of late. I’m in the hole for twelve grand in personal debt, & that is before you tack on my $252,876.00 debt on my mortgage. It just racked up so quickly, and what’s another $100, when you’re already thousands in debt? I had that ‘YOLO’ (you only live once) attitude, that I needed to travel, to indulge and to squeeze out every experience possible. Which I still maintain is very important for both my sanity & life experience, however, I’ve really got to start being more fiscally responsible. This is before delving into being more responsible as a friend, lover, & a something in-between. I’ll just say this, wrap it up kids, close calls are enough to make you want to be abstinent for forever. From all of this stress that has to seem to pop up out of nowhere literally these past couple weeks, I’ve done some soul searching; as well as, have had some very cathartic talks with some lovely humans I’m blessed to have in my life. I’ve come to a few conclusions from all of this.

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  • You cannot heal in the same environment that made you sick in the first place!
  • Start budgeting! Like actually, physically write it out, and stick to it! You cannot do it accurately in your head! My friends all suggested the app Mint and so far, I really like it, its stupid easy to use, and does all the work for you!
  • Don’t be a fool, wrap your tool!
  • Accomplish one thing a day that’s productive (no matter how small,) do one thing a day that makes someone else happy, & do one thing a day that makes you happy!

 

Twenty-five is exhilarating, scary & so much fun. I’m focusing on myself and my relationships between my friends & family. Trying to grow a strong base of which to bloom from.

xx Nikki